You know on the outside everything looks pretty hunky dory with my life. It's not. Nothing is new, nothing has changed, I struggle as usual. There are days that are amazing, and I feel on top of the world, and then there are days like today where I feel down and out. There are one or two more changes in my life that I need to make, but am feeling as though I just can't make them. I hate that. Will those changes make life better? or is that even the right question to be asking? Is a better question, will those two changes make my life more "right". In the eyes of some, absolutely, in the eyes of others absolutely not. Which is right? I am a lucky person, sometimes only by association, but lucky nonetheless, and yet tormented by my inner self. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. How true!
Have you seen my new apartment? It's amazing! Have you met my friends? They are amazing! I have a job...in this market that is amazing! There are people that care deeply about me...that is amazing! So what's wrong? There is something. or Is it just me?
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