I often have said that I want to be normal. I just want to be one of the guys. Be able to relate to people unlike the way I do now. Part of what makes me who I am though is the way I relate to people and it has served me fairly well up until now. I can see things, understand things, and hear things differently than other guys. Because of this I treat people differently than many guys. BUT... sometimes I feel it holds me back from being able to have more meaningful friendships with guys. Something that is hugely lacking in my life. My closest male friends live 300+ km away. I want to be a normal guy. But, it seems, that is just not in the cards for me.
I'm just not normal.
Then again... who is.
Caught in a jungle,
no sight of the other side,
trapped by the vines of life,
struggling to be free,
maybe all I need to do is release,
stop fighting,
and then a vision will come,
a breath of fresh air,
light through the denseness,
hope to grasp.
How do I stop envying people? I don't need a lot of material things, I don't need fame, I just want a few answers to life. My life.
I need to overcome complacency.
Fill me with passion, fill me with vision, fill me with courage, help me to listen, help me to hear, help me to be.
