But at this point I can't. I am physically not really attracted to women. HOW do I trust God to fulfill those types of needs? I am 30. Most of my friends are married or close to it. It's not a crazy desire, except for the fact that I just don't understand how it could be possible. I wish it were different. Do I have to simply resign myself to the fact that I will never be married and have a family? Who would chance a relationship with me? Seriously... so life isn't fair... I get that... but really... this... this is completely outrageously unfair.
HOW am I supposed to trust God with this one? I think this is the only area I have a hard time trusting God, but it affects so much of my relationship with him and with others.
